boring day at work~

its sunday and its super boring day for me lars. cannot take it. theres like not MANY customer today lors. and im like standing there doing nothing can. so boring~~

and so. i find things to get myself occupied. haha and guess what i did? haha..

First, i started drawing...


And after drawing im still bored.. SO. i started WRITING


After WRITING im STILL so BORED. so i started to WRITE MORE


AND STILL im AM STILL SOOO BORED..so i decided to CONTINUE..


and just in case u are wondering what i wrote. haha i wrote im freaking bored. den im damn bored and den SIAN. haha.

so this is how bored i am when im at work today. so it means that theres not many customer today. haha

at 2++am we've nothing to do so we played pool! haha. they on the music so loud and its all TECHNO. omgDness. blasting it out loud please. i couldnt hear when i left rm no, 801. so damn loud la. den after playing pool with my supervisor and a fren. i went to sing instead. i went to the other room to sing. haha. and i still dont know how to use the remote la. i tell you, thou im working at KBox.. i still dont know how to use the remote there.

played and slacked.. den off i go home. work ended at 3am today. hahaz. Christmas is coming and im asked if i wanna stay till late to celebrate during the EVE and i'll be paid. haha. as for now.. i dont think i want to stay. c'mon its Christmas please. haha. i die also wanna do smth BETTER during that day! care not even its EVE or wad. haha.

my supervisor super good today! haha. he cooked Tomyam noodle for all staff. haha. and he used the microphone from the bar and said: all servers, TOMYAM's READY! and all of us run into the bar and started eating. haha!!

and im tired now. haha. sleep well world..

its a sunday.. what a sunday for me..

usually people stays at home or out to enjoy on a sunday. but i cant. hurhur. i have to work. sian half already.

work went alright for these few days. nothing much pissed me. haha. just that the transportation problem.

my brother is home today and he cooked Herbal Chicken. aint he such a good cook? i dont even know how. haha.

and this is one pic of me when im working.taken by a customer. i think i look super ugly. so damn shagged face..




this is one very tall customer of kbox. haha. or maybe im short. i said MAYBE only hor. haha

the rest below are taken when im out with JR for Harry and The Goblet Of Fire!!!!


im in the cinema..........


while JR was enjoying popcorns. i entertained myself...


and he is back now! hahahaha

and i really miss taking pictures.. bestie please go out with me soon... im rotting at Kbox already.

love ya all readers!!!

hi my dear faithful readers!

haha. i slept at 7++am and got up at 1pm. 6 hours of rest and the rest of the day im going out and den to work. wow. give me the strength O Lord. haah

before i got to bed this morning i thought of what to write here. but when im here i totally dont remember a single thing. how good.

my memory is failing me. oh man. sigh. nvm. anyway. my shift has CHANGED. sadly im in the noon shift already. and its from 2pm -10pm how good? sigh. i cant go out and PLAY! omgDNess. hurhur.

anyways. ive changed my friendster settings already. for some reasons. sigh.. people making me afraid. or maybe im a dan xiao mao. haha!

sooner or later i will quit that job. its inviting uninvited problems to my life man.

my brother is going to celebrate his bdae today. SIGH. i also WANNA GO~~~~ sentosa i wanna GO. to the sun i wanna turn DARKER to the moon.. stop shinning so bright. im looking pale all the time please.

its gonna be a long long day today................................

dear world. its 603am now. Good morning!!!

im relaxing my legs now.. why? cause i just got home from a long walk all the way from saint andrews to my house. haha. Thank God for my strong legs! hahaha.

i cant think of what to write now. im shagged. super shagged. im trying to keep on keeping on at work... im TRYING.

oh.. theres tooooooooooo many customers today. theres TWO functions today please. omGDness. haha

i shall continue again. im tired..

nights my dear faithful readersssss..

its 248pm and i just got up from bed. man how late. hate it. not that i wanna sleep so long. all because work ended late.

well yesterday. my first day as a full timer. erm. everythings alright yesterday. nothing goes wrong. hmm. i wasnt smiling all the time lar. haha. ive no idea why when the happy me comes out, people will think im playing not working or think im not serious. so i'll just be serious.

got this guy. dont wanna name him out. dont like him. his brain is so filled with nuts la. peanut brain. everything to him is RA. crazie fellow. normal topic he can also link it to RA. he loveS to ask me to do things. saying that he is training me to work fast. wad rubbish. so to train me to work fast. ive got to do alot. he thinks im God eh? in a day train me i can work freaking fast eh? so next time employ newcomers. the seniors dont have to work. coz the newcomers needs to train to be fast. so they have to do most job. what rubbish. he still got the CHEEK to ask if i felt as if im tortured. how stupid. why not just get a ROBOT? whatsmore i need time to learn too. fast?how fast?

and one more. he makes me feel like slapping him. the bartender brought out pineapples for us to eat. so i eat it. and damn that stupid guy say wow jessie you eat till so sexy. i was like HUH? i just eat ong lai loh. he said that he wasnt looking at me. so i answered then why did you say that then? den he answered i saw.... so on lar. all rubbish.. overall he was looking at me eating ong lai la. and the supervisor asked him to teach me those pricing thing.. he stand so close and i tell you.. he got BADBREATH.

oh yes. KBox says they got transport for the staff to go home. i tell you.... ya.. but not ALL PLACES. thank God one uncle agreed to drive me home yesterday. if not i really have to walk from town to home. why town? ive got no idea why all the staffs from every branch have to gather there to take the transport. so im there loh. i guess i shall walk home today. i dont wanna go town. haha. i ended work at 3am but i got home ard 5am. how early. coz have to wait for transport loh. if i walk ytd. i'll be home by 4am.

thank God that im working morning shift after next wed. phew.. finally the supervisor allowed me to work morning shift.

and today work start at 8pm but i gotta be there at 6pm. RAhhh.coz of a meeting... since im there for a meeting.. am i paid? 2 hours early loh. can earn 12bucks okie. haha!

and pays coming out on the FIFTH!!! YEAHHHH!!!

Christmas..im coming... since im working on that day too. but im working in the morning hahah! after that. christmas.. here i come!!!!!

oh yes.. for KBox, all full timers cannot ask for off day on weekends. CANNOT one. our off days are only from mon to thurs. how sad man. but nvm.. morning shift.. haha its okie. work hard now play later loh. haha.

oh..before i go, i love you my dear readers!!!! be Blessed everyone.

once again, CAN SOMEONE KINDLY KNOCK ME WITH SOMETHING HARD?

oh man. the time now is 9.30am and i got into my lala land only at 3am. and got up at 5++am cause im THIRSTY and believe me, its my FIRST time waking up because im thirsty. usually i wake up all because of the cramps im having. but today different.

and i went back to sleep but got up again at 7++am. and i forced myself to go back and sleep again..and sadly, i got up at 8++am and i stayed on my bed tossing around hoping to get more sleep. i couldnt.. turned and covered myself with blanket use the pillow to cover my face and all, i couldnt sleep. so i got up and blog loh.

im so disturbed. all cause of that job man. not that im EXCITED to go and work. its when i thought of the timings, the people. oh man. i cant sleep. i dont know what can i do man. i couldnt sleep when i think that im working tonight and worried that i might not be able to take it. throughout the entire night im thinking about it. i sooooo cannot sleep!!!

and im singing: What A Friend We Have In Jesus etc... in my dream please. dont know why. so i was asking God to help me lors. help what? help me so i can change to morning shift? or help me when theres trouble at work lors. help me when i meet those insignificant people. oh and better tell me what to do at work so i wouldnt ask soooooooooo many questions lor. and the best, get me a better job. haha!

i know i should pray specifically. but theres too many that i want from work. i know sooner or later i still hafta settle that timing thing.. but.. sigh.. im just procrastinating lar.

i dont know what will happen tonight and im worried for it. worrying now is like no use. its like wasting my time worrying about something that might not happen? but.. im still worried... i dont wanna face the people there. i dont wanna be there. i guess tonight will be REN ZAI XIN BU ZAI liao. haha. if i were to get my Cert earlier.. i could even work in an office already. if i WERE to GET it. and HOW i WISH to GET it ASAP.

and results coming out on the 15th. theres too many IFs in my mind now. eg. if i were to get an A for all subjects. will i? can i? actually i wanted A all along. Bs didnt step into the picture. everyone wishes for A anyway. but i wish for an A that im able to get. not those wish but cannot get one.

sigh. im sucha BUSY person. why? haha! cause im so busy thinking and worrying. -shake head-

if i were to tell you that ive enjoyed my job, it obviously lacked of conviction. but i really did enjoyed for the FIRST FEW DAYS. FIRST FEW DAYS people...

hurhur. i cant sleep i cant sleep i cant sleep i cant sleep.. God please give me my beloved sleep!!!!

i was chatting with a friend online. talked about something missing.. actually i feel it too. and now i know whats missing. ive lost the confidence i used to have. ive lost the faith i used to have. ive lost the dependence in Him too.

so what am i now?

im fustrated. i need to sleep!!

IVE WATCHED HARRY POTTER AND THE GOBLET OF FIRE~~~~~!!!YEAH!!!!

haha. ive finally watch it. my lonGggg awaited harry! haha! its a super great show. i like it soooo much! haha. i so love the guy. man i forgot the name. not harry. i forgot his name. the dude who died in the maze. he is sucha handsome guy~ haha!! when the guy got killed i wanna CRY! haha. its sucha sad thing okie. haha

oh.thanks to JR for the treat to the show. haha. after the show met nelson and cason. take pictures and had dinner and then walked around bugis street den played pool for awhile and off we go. and all headed home. haha..

im feeling so tired now. tomorrow will be a dreadful day as im starting to work as a full timer. how SAD man! i hope nothing will go wrong and noone piss me off. i hope everything is peaceful lars.

im tired now. dont know what to write. i shall add again later.

I WANT TO WATCH HARRY POTTER AND THE GOBLET OF FIRE!!!!!!!!!!!!

i cant wait to watch it i cant wait to watch it!!!!!!!!i so wanna watch it please. the eagerness in my heart.. oh my. i really want to watch it lars. can the show wait for me???

okie. today as usual. stayed home. im not the homely kinda person. but ive got noone to go out with so dont go out lors. haha. all my cliques are in school. sooo i shall be good and stay home. got up at 130pm.. bought lunch and watch The Cinderella Story. i had watched this show many many times and i still love this show sooooooooooooo much! haha. i watched Resident Evil-apocalypse- last night and it kinda scared me lars. the guy max turned into a erm.. monster?he look freaking scary lah.

im searching for vcds so i can be entertained the whole day. haha. i wanted to watch my favorite Endless Love. but sigh. that woman borrowed it and never return. so whats the meaning of borrow when theres no Return? why not just say: can give me? nvm..

i wanna watch many shows lars. i cant wait to get my pay and off i go to the cinema and watch. maybe i should try watching alone without friends. hahaaaa.. but it would be sooooo boring. theres noone i can scream with or pinch at, cry with or talk while watching.. afterall, its better with friends hahahahahaa..

my brother came online to chat while in camp. and i told him abt my work. how sucky it is. and he say thats the world man. ya true thats the world. the world aint good. i dislike it.

im thinking of whats my purpose in life? and here are what i thought of.some but not all.
-i want to fulfil my dream to be a secretary. not a small one but a secretary of a large organisation. -and im already a step closer to my dream-

-i want to have a heart that could contain forgiveness. coz ive got too many things i gotta forgive people about. well if u know me, you know theres too many.

-i want to love more. coz i want to be loved also. theres a lyric to a song, to love and be loved to bless and be blessed to forgive and be forgiven. thats all that i wanted.

but in the world, i can never get it, cause people in the world dont give. they only want to receive. people in the world hates and dont love. people in the world dont love unconditionally.

i was reading through the sermons i wrote when i was in church. its was like long ago. on the 15th anniversary service. i wrote the sermon down. its about keys to survive STRESS. i so need this sermon to be preached once again. cant imagine that i was actually about to throw the booklet full of sermons into the dustbin.

the First key is to Worry about NOTHING.
-and i remember Pst always says that we all are not a born worrier.

Second is to PRAY about EVERYTHING.
-thou ive left church, but praying really helps. cause, my prayers had been answered before.

Third is to Thank God in ALL THINGS
-till now, i still thank God for who i am who i meet everything cause i know he has a will for me he has a purpose for me too. from that ive learn not to blame but to thank. for whatever happens, i grow from it. experienced from it and i'll be stonger than who i used to be. shouldnt i thank Him for giving me challenges to make me grow a level higher? so i shall stop blaming. i'll TRY.-Gratitude is a stress reliever. i'll TRY yea? haha. i shall TRY.

Fourth is to Think about the RIGHT thing.
-what right thing?i dont know. but i know do the right thing. live in the TRUTH.

that is why i can never accept liars to be in my life. i never want to live a life of lies. im walking a life of truth. lies can never be accepted within me.

and the unconditional love. thats why im single till now?coz i dont seems to find it in the world haha. a friend says maybe im unlucky. haha. i dont think so. i just think that the one is not here yet. hahaha! wheres my prince? did he lost his way? hahahahaha!!!

sometimes i wish i could work all the time so i wont have any free time to go and find problems to think to worry to fuss about. but sometime i hate to go to work because of the environment im in. the people and all. i want my perfect life la. but i dont seems to get it lars.

oh..im chatting on msn now. and after many conversation at work or msn, i realised that many people like to question me indirectly regarding my marital status. why cant humans just be direct? want to ask just ask. dont go one big big round to ask that simple short "are you attached" question. some will say, eh your bf never come and fetch you home ah? never go out with your bf? and what i forgot something like aiya later your bf angry ah. bth. want to ask just ask like hey you single ah? you attached? i will happily answer you yes im single. indirectly questioning jus make me feel like not answering.

and i got a friend who LOVES to be sarcastic. forever. and one stupid reason will be im tired now not talking properly. i wanna ask, if you're tired, how you know you aint talking properly?if your tired, do you still got the strength to go and think of sarcastic remarks?

and a friend that likes to say im a bo xim person. like when im out with my BESTIE. friend will say i bo xim cause i never JIO him along. and say can also be BESTIE. i wanted to say, you already know its BESTIE already. do you think its easy to be someones bestie? it takes time to build a friendship, just like a relationship.

and at work. have to let the customer know that its the last song for them or they have to go. i always knocked on the door and say, sorry last song. sorry your time is up already. and i smiled. to the cust. they-not cust- think im too direct. they said that i should say: dui bu qi bu hao yi shi, shi jian dao ler. i replied saying: isnt it the same meaning in english?

oh..christmas is coming.... i love christmas haha.. but do i get the chance to celebrate it? sigh i dont know.....

Since i have got nothing to do, i shall add another entry today. hahahahaha!

okies. did household chores today. why? cause ive got nothing to do and my house seems untidy. as usual lars. with those junks. its forever untidy no matter how hard i tried to keep the house cleaned.

well i guess i know why moms would rather clean the house all by themselves and not asking the husbands to do so. cause i think moms feels that they can do much better than their husbands. why do i say that? haha. cause when my brother does the cleaning, i felt as though the house is uncleaned. haha. so to save the hassle, i shall clean the entire house all by myself haha. but i dont deny, im lazy most of the time and when im lazy i really mean im LAZY, looking at my room, wow.. clothes everywhere mann. haha.but i get very pissed when i see my house dirty and things are everywhere. i wish for a maid lar. haha.

oh.. this noon i went and RANSACKED my kitchen. -evil laughter- well actually i was doing the laundry. and my eyes started scanning everywhere which i had never noticed or touched before. and so i saw this big big box and im super curious of whats inside that big box. and my hands started reaching out to it hahaha! and so i drag that big box out and start digging. i saw many beautiful utensils! haha i so love them. im not aunty okie. bestie says im like a aunty. and i think the things are expensive. its all from AMWAY. its super new mann. and so i start using it today. haha COOK! haha. actually i cook soup only lah haah.

in the midst of digging, i FREAKED out. i saw that xiao qiang. and so i screamed. got frightened by it. and so i searched for my useful weapon. haha. and so i killed that xiao qiang. and i told myself that when im older, im so not gonna get a house 6 level and below. i wanna stay as high as possible. i hate xiao qiang, i hate floods.

my throat is killing me. RAHHhhhHHhhh...

around 6plus plus pm. bestie came and joined me for dinner. we both had a super duper full dinner. we had herbal chicken, fish and chips, mushroom soup and one bowl of rice each. haha! big bowl. haha. im super full mann. i did the preparation. bestie did the washing. washed everything except the rice cooker. mann. not that shes lazy, the prob is, she DONT wash RICE COOKER. whats the diff man?

okie. and i was ASKED to go and watch tv while she BLOG. looking at poor bestie, internet connect still not CURED yet. i unwillingly let her conquered my comp for dont know how long. hahah! am just JK. hahas

i so wanna watch CHICKEN LITTLE and HARRY POTTER!!! i SO WANNA watch JUST LIKE HEAVEN. i so WANNA celebrated CHRISTMAS. i so WANNA have FUN i so wanna DO MANY THINGS!!

i wanna eat BEN AND JERRY'S ICE CREAM. I WANNA EAT SALMON. i wanna eat LAGSANE.

im dreaming for something everyday haha. shall not name out. chocolates and chocolates..yumyum..

i miss so many people!!! grandma especially.

-loves-

*yawn. i just got up from bed and here i am blogging. its my off day today wuahaha. got up and there's noone at home, my brother went back to camp. so its super quiet and im feeling super bored la. and my throat is killing me.

met up with dearest after work yesterday. had dinner over at Cavana. went esplanade to slack for a while and started searching high and low for deposit machine. and also searched for cheap icecream, in the end with ate a five bucks ice cream. super expensive man. macdonald's way to far from where i am. hahah.

asked hows work? haha. its still the same lars. as stress lors. haha

WHATS WRONG WITH ASKING QUESTIONS HUH?

ive been thinking and thinking. still im asking myself like whats wrong man? i wouldnt ask if i know the answers to my WHYS and HOWS. and someone can say. let her do, she keep asking questions. i was like HUH? if i know would i even ask?

WHATS WRONG?

i was pissed. i was super fustrated. but what can i do man, beside telling myself to tolerate and keep on keeping on.

i like people who are serious at work. but when theres a newcomer its always good to help if they are questioning. if they dont question, its either they are lazy or whatever. but i want to know more so i questioned, i want to be efficient at work. im not there to play. but why people are so DOTZ to me?

and im serious of just wanting to work. and im okie with jokes. but some people need to know the limits. i dont like ALL the NAMES i was given at work. i guess they treat their friends as friends when they PUSH their head just to say BYE and giving those NAMES. not once but many times. and some loves to be rude forever showing off their middle finger.

and in all, ive been working for less than 15 days. i was expected to know EVERYTHING. coz im not to question sooooooo much like what someone say: ask so many questions. im not perfect please.

and still, IF I KNOW I WOULDNT ASK.

whats with the people in the world?

i really need a much much much more bigger heart. to forgive to love to be gracious to be patient and etc lars.

at work, noone understand what it means by it better to give than to receive. they dont want to give, they want to receive? i wouldnt tell anyone there of how "happy" im at work. for now all i can do is to just tolerate for abt 8 hrs of work everyday. its a super good training to train my tolerance. after this job. i might be a super patient person then. hhahahaha. and a more forgiving person huh? hahah. scully i turn mad instead hahah! or maybe white hair starts growing. wrinkles starts coming, eye bags getting bigger.hahahaaaaaaa... okok.. im crazie already. haha.

dont worry my frens. im still alive. im still me. im still jiayou-ing. i wont die.

i had a bad day yesterday. earlier was good but when night falls. wohhh.. bad day. why bad day?work lahz. sigh!

theres way tooooooooo many people yesterday and everyone were sooooooo busy handling the people. so AM i please.

i dont know if its me or the people la. its either im a blur sotong or im just stupid? damn that bartender say i stupid. he aint that clever anyway. i believe when he first joined he's also like me.

yesterday i kept looking for the captain for help and she told me not to ask her for everything. i was wondering, dont ask you?den ask who?if do wrong things will ganna scolding or being blamed. so must well just ask to confirm. am i right people?and it wouldnt kill to just help right people?

i cant take it man. can you imagine? i was standing there walking to my left and then to my right holding on to the paper and pen thinking like HOW HOW HOW? and ive got no answer to my HOWS. and at the same time some PEOPLE came to me and ask me to do this and that. when i still have things to do in hand! and i cant say no, so ive just added one more burden to myself yesterday! when i turned to THAT person for help, i cant IMAGINE he just WALKED PASSED me. just like that please. i wanted to scream out loud at him.

and he will just JESSIE go and do this JESSIE go and do that. im so willing to do if i know how please. i so hope to do more work just to let time pass AS FAST! i so want to do more so i can leave the place and for home for PEACE. i asked questions not because i wanna find trouble with people or im what they CALLED the blur sotong. i just want to KNOW!

and i dont smoke. and i went to served a room where some students wanna buy a box of cigarette, they wanted PALL MALL. i thought park mall please. and i forgot who to ask me to ask what la. i went to the room and ask WHAT SIZE? i cant believe it man. what am i asking? size? actually i should ask if they wanted menthol light or wad. not that im stupid okie, i dont smoke so i cant be bothered with what light or what pall mall park mall whatever.

and i know nuts about those CHIM CHIM alcholic drinks. SCORCHES? what is that man? and i dont know if they served VODKA LIME so i kept asking and asking.. and i dont know how to key that SCORCHES into the computer. so i asked and asked. and i tell you, what MIXER i also dont know. and what Brandy can mix with what i also dont know. imagine ive got so many of DONT KNOWS yesterday and i needed help and people not helping but helping to add more things into my work.and i only know tiger beer and coke etc only,and red wine is red white wine is white. others i dont KNOW.. i cant take it.. and so i got home headed to the kitchen sat beside my cooling fridge and just CRY! after a long long long time, yesterday i again felt super helpless...

and i was supposed to end work at 11pm but i always end around 1130-1145. not that i wanna earn extras. i just wanna help and learn more loh. some says im silly. i wanna do things fast and done and know more so i will have lesser question to ask. and man people think im silly im sotong im question mark. whatever.

and that bartender super rude man! my name is not OIE. my name is JESSIE or JESSIE TAY to be EXACT. i think he is more stupid, coz basic manners also dont know. he need to go back home to learn basic manners.

and i dont make friends with customers.. im just working there earning money only. im not there to make friends.

afterall i think its a wrong choice of working there. i shouldnt even go and apply to work there. its just not my life la. to them im like a lost girl. know nothing. beers all cigarettes all. i dont know. i dont fully understand hokkien canto etc. i only know english and chinese. so people like me, working there? wrong choice isnt it?

and im working again tonight. hopefully everything goes well... a dreadful day yesterday, hopefully today wouldnt be as dreadful? im praying hard.

my brother asked to go ECP. i would love to go as ive nv hang out with my brother to ECP to jus cycle.. but sigh. work.. actually.. i wanted ask for off.. to me, hanging out with my brother is much more important than the money im going to earn. but sigh! i can only ask for off before thurs.sigh.. and if i tell them i wanted off coz im going out with my brother, will they let me off? people in the world aint that nice right?

thats my complains again... bear with me dear all.

::im always keeping on:: and i dont deny im a ham pao..........

YUKI YAKI~

met nelson, his brother, cason, KY, JR for pool this afternoon at MS. was late. opps. so sorry guys. haha. i overslept. haha.

later alvin came. and joined in. hmm. went for bowling and off i head to Kbox to slack. haha. played song and sang inside, without mike la. haha. and they went for a game of CounterStrike. well, i dont play that so i stayed in Kbox all the while. haha. at around 630pm off we go to YUKI YAKI for dinner! hahahahaha.. my long awaited birthday celebration. haha!

had loadsa fun at Yuki Yaki. laughed all. its crazie la. wanted nelson to joined in my table, but well. its okie den. hmm. took pictures. haha. loadsa pictures la. haha. i had salmon. man i love salmon.. i wanted to eat more but too full lars. haha.

i guess today will be the last time i ever hang out with them? everyone's gotta work real soon. will miss them lars. sighz. that supervisor of mine. sigh CMI lars. cannot take it. i asked to work morning shift he dont agree and still got the CHEEk to say confirm ah really ah promise ah. i was like HELLO? do i have a choice? i dont even have a choice to say no to whatever he planned. all i can say is okie loh. damnit. so i hafta work full time and work starts at 8pm and end at 3am. omg. whats with that supervisor man? nvm.. i REN. hahahaha

and my dear brother is home from AUST. Thank God for keeping him safe. haha. he got me this handmade neckless. guess what, im super touched. my brother had nv gotten me gifts. and he also got me chocolates. its super duper nice man. and thanks to Janice for getting me the belt. i love it coz it pink. hahaha. thanks so much.

and lastly, THANKS JR FOR THE TREAT!!! i really appreciate it alot alot. xie xie niiiii~

okie. took loadsa loadsa loadsa pictues...




i had my favourite salmon. its good for skin okie.


JR and myself. and extra nelson's hand


look, salmon so famous okie. haha

after eating, ive decided to entertain myself before my dessert comes in..


JR and Nelson NEVER allow me to have peace when im taking pictures not understanding what ALONE means. hahahah jk.


saw that neckless my dear brother bought? haha nice bo?haha




KY, JR and cason-> he look great with this spec.


nelson and myself.




this is nelson's brother. omg. hang out with him many times but i dont rem his name.sorry man.




look at the EXTRAS!


one two three!!








KY and nelson's very nice brother haha


erm this pic, i was told not to comment much lars.




im helping KY to test test his HP lars.




those were the daysss..










KY and Cason..



and finally its time for dessert!!! we had ICY ker li mu!!! ice cream!!!


first get this.


then pour it into the cooling icy pan..


start the so called "frying"


and tadah!!! heres the icy ker li muuuu ahhaha


they even wanted to snatch ice cream loh.-shake head- hahahah

and thats all for now!!!

nitez all!

ps: thanks to you guys!!!

these pictures are taken on my Birthday~


believe it or not, i dont wear contact lens.


the problem for fair people to take neo prints is that the flash is far too strong la. look, my nose is gone.













thats all.

Praise The LORD! EXAMS FINALLY OVER!!!!!!

yeah~ im super duper free now. no more stress within me. haha. i had my Office Procedures paper today. hehe. was studying since erm. 7+pm yesterday till 3+am this morning. haha. wonder why i took so long to study? because..... at the very same time, im watching television show. hehe! opppppss.. well. if you are thinking that watching tv its hard to concentrate. haha. yes indeed its hard. but ive no idea why i can. haha. actually i studied only during the advertisement part la. and the paper today... hmm.. not so bad la. i wont fail it too. hopefully i'll get an A for this. or rather B. haha. A or B also can. but not C haha! i prayed before the paper started. so i have faith that i'll pass. haha. and now im praying hard to pass my basic theory.

early in the morning i panicked. im afraid of being late today. and i left my house at 715am when my bus comes at 719am!!! omg. i ran once ive locked my main door. all the way to the bus stop. and thank God that i ran fast! hahahaha! i managed to catch the bus. so short legs people can also run fast one kies. haha!

everywhere is soooooo cold man. im like freezing even when im on bed. my blanket have got no use. haha! CMI ones. sighz.

im tired. im so tired. my brain had been working super hard these two days. its time for my brain to rest. "goodnite" people.

a day more to seeing my beloved home! yes!!!! i mean erm 2 more days to be exact. coz this brother of mine aint coming home after arriving from aust. he's "flying" STRAIGHT to his darling's place. nevermind... i can wait one. im only his sister. haha. darling more important. i'll be kind. hahaaaaaa...

-zzz-

well. im tired for now. got up super early today. thanks to TWO good morning caller. and they are bestie and serena. haha. both called around 6am. and i dragged myself to the bathroom haha. i hate to wake up in the early morning. i studied till like 1+2am. no choice, today had my final year paper. had Effective Writing. ask how did it go? hehe. well....... not too bad. haha. i have not just some but i think more than 5-6 careless mistake? opps. but i dont think i'll go to the extend of failing that paper.

got home at dont know what time. the moment i lock my main door. headed str8 to my kitchen to start doing housework. dots la. actually just wanna clean my cat's place but clean and clean i rather clean the whole house. and so ive cleaned everything.

today is not a good day. im feeling mentally and physically tired. my left hand's tired. coz it has been working all day. that Effective Writing paper really sucha pain. theres loads to write i tel u.poor left hand. haha.

and hor. i was irritated while doing the paper. some guy from other class, while doing the paper, keep burping non stop please. and its like burp without saying excuse me. and i was wondering what did he eat earlier. theres so much gas.. he was disturbing my peace in doing my paper. i was turning back to stare at that guy and he just do his paper as if he did nothing. aRghh.. i felt so disgusted. and while doing the paper, its good that the teacher stop repeating things like write ur nirc here. im busy cracking my brain to doing the questions. i'll write my nirc down after ive finished doing all. anyway i was abit paranoid la. im afraid of the time. im afraid that time will pass super fast. haha. imagine you are doing the other question,thinking of how to do and at the same time thinking about the previous question if you did it correctly or missed out anything and hearing those irritating burping and the teacher walking pass to tell you to write nirc. its freaking irritating.

and yes my beloved brother is coming home soon. in just 2 more days and im able to see him feel his prescence. isnt that good. i cant wait to see him. i miss him many many. RAhHhhh..

i miss granny. i wanna meet her. but i dont wanna meet that woman. to meet granny means to also meet that woman. sighz.

throughout the weekend, ive enjoyed alot. and its monday now...........stress week la.exams ah... RAhHHhhhhHhhhHhh

im having Office Procedures paper tomorrow. God please HELP ME!!!!

i so wanna do many things. i wanna paint my room i wanna change my bed i wanna buy clothings i wanna buy bags i wanna buy wallets i wanna buy shoes, i wanna buy slippers, i wanna buy heels, i wanna buy food to fill my fridge, i wanna buy TELEVISION-bestie u know la hor. sigh....and.. theres too many to name out lahz. hahaha

ive no idea why im so so so tired today.

slept around 3++am and got up ard 1pm today. dragged myself to school coz i so dun wanna go to school today. lesson started at 2 and i reached at 315pm. stepped into the comp lab and guess how many people were present? Less than 6. out of the whole lot of 41 students in my class. around 6 turned up. included me.

basically i was there to hand up my work. if not for the work ive done, i wouldnt have gone all the way there.heard that loadsa marks will be given for that work.so for the marks sake, i went. and theres no lesson today please. Mr Tay is on course and Mrs Yap was there but there's nothing to teach cause we've all completed everything.

reached school i felt as though the school is closed. it seems like it aint open today. not many students were in the school. its very very very quiet. all i could hear are those construction noise.

ive yawn many many times today. super tired. no idea why. got home i wanted to sleep but im super hungry. i bought the crispy chicken and ate the whole lot of it, usually i couldnt finish all by myself, surprisingly i finished it today, all by MYSELF. and ate two dunno wad la. you know the one got red bean inside one? also got different flavour one? i ate the chocolate one. haha.

and in all, my breakfast cum lunch cum dinner is finally settled! crispy chicken and two of that dont know what. haha. after eating, i wanted to sleep.. haha. but cannot ah. i scared will gain extra weight. haha. so i watch tv instead haha. and the time now is 830pm and im going to bed.

nightz dear readers.

ive type a long entry but i deleted it.

cos its all about my past. its all about that woman. its all about the hates i have for liars. its all about people not being responsible for whatever was said through their mouth. its all about how upset i am. and why im sad etc? coz that woman brought up my past and i remembered of all the bad incidents. i really hate to hate her. afterall she is someone i must respect. but..sigh. God, give me a bigger heart. or a even bigger heart to contain forgiveness and love.

whenever i thought of all this incidents, my heart aches like mad. i wish to cry out loud. i wish i could cry finish the tears i have. i wish to just get outta this misery she gotten me into. but i remembered of keep on keeping on. so i kept on..till now, ive never give up.

have you ever have a feeling of wanting to cry but you controlled?? and your chest feel pain? i do. right now. this moment. sooner or later, i will have HBP-high blood pressure- got to pissed off.too angry. -qi chu bing lai-

alrights. thats my complains for today. still i shall forgive.. sigh.. i will forgive..

IT'S MY 18th BIRTHDAY TODAY!

Happy Birthday to Me~

im so BLESSED i felt so BLESSED. this Birthday indeed was a great one. haha.

firstly, thanks to Chin hwee, Meimei, Edwyn, Lenz, Jimmy who called to wish me. thanks so much. especially to Lenz and Jimmy haha. thanks for calling on the DOT at 12am.and not forgetting the kind girl Serena haha.

and thanks to Ling, Serene, Shar, Anne, Jasmine, K.Peishan, Rochelle, Yingwei, Nurul, Robbie, Justin, Jason, Huishan, Manfred, Keng Yong, Gecko, amanda-09- , amanda-ndp- and Darren and not forgetting my beautiful nice soon to be -da sao- who smsed me to wish me. hehe. i remember de okie.

and also, Xin-er, Felicia, Bestie and hao hao and Peishan and Nemo and Cindy who wish me on msn. hehe. did i miss out anyone?

and Tenghong and Nurul, Alvin and Jia rui! Thanks for wishing by adding testimonial to my friendster.

and to shar. thanks for holding on to your phone with the typed out message and waited for the clock to hit twelve and you went to lala land without knowing. haha. i appreciate it. im so touched shar. love you many! miss you too.

Most importantly, Thanks to Marcus, Nurul and Jimmy. for the meals. i love it all. Swensens, Barnsburry and Marche. wow. i love it. thanks friends!

and the gifts from *** thanks. i really appreciate all that you gave.

im blessed am i? im so blessed am i? im super blessed am i? i felt so blessed! i remembered the sms from shar telling me that my name actually mean : the blessed one. and indeed i felt im so blessed. from the day im born. God already blessed me. hehe.

and to all: im EIGHTEEN already. if you are working at GV. take a good look at me please, i dont want to show my identification anymore! haha!

i took neoprints again today. haha. will upload other day.

i was waiting for one important call the entire day. but my phone did not make any sound of oversea call.

anyways. ive enjoyed my eighteen birthday. hehe. to Jia rui, Cason, Nelson, Kengyong and etc.. yuki yaki has gotta wait till my exams are over. it shall be a belated one. no choice la. present from the school is exams. and yes. present from my health is a pimple right at my eyebrow! aRghhh..

and lastly. to Benjamin.. hehe HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY!!!!

just got home after celebrating my early birthday with a friend. hehe. very happy. went to a restaurant. had Steak and ofcoz not paid by me. haha. hehe. super nice! but i asked for medium well instead of well done. i thought well done will be super hard to bite. but medium well to me was a little too bloody? haha. but still the food!! wow! very nice.. and surprised me with a ChEESECAKE! oh my. i love it. but im too full to eat it so i da pao it home instead. hehe. my first early celebration.- to the friend: thank you so much! its a very nice place and i like it. thanks for the plans!

well. dad called again. hehe. this time round i did not miss that call haha. and chatted. asked him if he is coming back home during Jan. he said he's not too sure abt it as he got a performance for his band thing coming on. i was like sian half already. but well its his job. i cant say anything. and i said to him: do you know what day will it be two days later? haha and he said: ya la your birthday and he continued with a BIRTHDAY song on the phone. but the birthday song was sang wrongly!! he sang: happy birthday to you, you are born in the zoo so on and so forth la. hhaa. i said that song not counted. haha must sing to me on the exact day and must come with a PREZZIE. haha. and he said: huh? can ortan? i was like yes you can but only for a period of time. not ortan forever. haha. and i said expensive gift also. so right now im wondering what gift i should ask from him hehe!

worked from 2-7 and slack at my workplace for an hour or so. people there are super funny people. what makes me wonder is: why must they laugh at me? and know what. one friend scare me from my back today and i went to bang the wall. damnit. and my arm super pain. but now alright already. and not i very naive to actually go and believe whatever they say, the prob is i trust everyone there and i believe of whatever they say. and i do not like to doubt people. now i know. whatever they say: they are joking one! haha. they are a bunch of super funny people. haha.

at work, im super worried that i might do something wrong. so i wanna get everything right. and i hope i can do all the things perfectly right. i dont wanna commit any mistake. a mistake mean extra trouble and its so fustrating to settle those trouble. and my supervisor expect me to know most of the things over there by the 26th of nov. man... i really hope i can get everything into my big brain. i'll never want anything wrong. and i'll never want to do anything wrong.

and today. some stupid STUDENT make me PC. EXCUSE mE. you go Kbox and sing and play or whatever. im server and i came and serve you drinks and everything. it would be great if you need my help you can always KINDLY say please, can you pour me the Lemon tea? please?not just talk among your friends expecting me to KNOW that you are talking to me! and if i didnt hear what you were trying to say, you can always say hi? excuse me? please? not use that microphone and say: ask you to pour the lemon tea! RAISING your DAMn voice. i hope to tell you go and bang the wall!and my mind had already have those image of me banging you on the wall asking u to mind your manners. and eventhough im working and serving. doesnt mean you have all rights to be rude. and that only student is rude and all his friend gotta apologise to me for him! what a -mei jiao yang de xue shen- anyway theres about 7 of them. and please. im working not for the sake of you. not for you to put your weight as customer.not for you to treat me like a MAID. im working for the salary please. i dont mind serving any drinks or just help customers. but if you are rude thinking you are a big boss there i really hate to serve people like you.

and im super upset. who is the one that cause me to be upset. its my aunt. sigh. why would someone be so ignorant? why would someone care only for herself and care nuts about others?? why would someone keep her own house to be cleaned and nice while let other's house to be filled with her junks? why?

recently. uncle came with xiao aunt to move some of the JUNKS away and sadly to my dismay, i guess they also unknowingly invited some unwanted guest! and guess who are the unwanted guest? its the XIAO QIANGS! man! they moved the things from my balcony into my house, my living room.how good is that? and the things they moved had not been touched for about 3 years? i wonder whats in those black bagS! and these few days theres many xiao qiangs in my house and im really super duper afraid of them. im trying to overcome my xiao qiang fear. but it piss me off when i know what is the cause of them coming. sigh!

and i told uncle about removing the junks from my living room. he said xiao aunt will come the next day to remove. man yah she came the next day, but not to remove, but to dig more of the junk in the balcony and bring whatever she dig on sat away. and leaving all the they've dig in the living room! why would someone dig more when she has yet to remove what has to be removed first? whY!!! aRGHH whY??????

and now i dont know how many xiao qiang are still alive in my house! and it feel terrible. i cant sleep in peace with no worries of realising xiao qiang beside me? i thought i could clean up my house coz my bro will be away for at least 3 weeks. so i can clean. but problems keep coming. that junks. oh man. i really BTH. so i called her and said: da gu. pls ask xiao gu to come and clear the things in the living room, if not i'll move it back to the bal but if it rain or what im not gonna bother. and she said wad busy all the rubbish. she should be glad that i did not say i will remove them myself and dump in the big big place for rubbish. i told dad i wanna clear all that meaning to throw all away, now giving aunt chances to come and pick everything and man she bo chup. with stupid excuses. she's been busy for 5-6 long years? coz that junk was in my bal for 5-6 long years. how dumb is that excuse?busy, no time? its all rubbish. i hate xiao qiang. in just 2 days, ive killed 3 xiao qiang in MY HSE! and there one more alive one i cant find it. damn im so not gonna slp till its dead. all that junk fault! GOD WHY????????

not that i wanna hate people of what they do. its them giving people reason's to hate them. second chances aint precious to some people.some people take those chances for granted. whats with the world? i hate it.

forgiveness is the key to ur happiness. its better to give than to receive. forgive and forget. to love and be loved. all these runs in my heart every single day. all these runs super hard when im angry..but i can no longer take it.. sigh. how ah God?

dear people im home! hehe. im home from work. today. aRgh..

okies. im super shag today. tough job ive got today. why? hehe. coz im like alone for a moment, my that supervisor leave me alone lorz. second day of work DIY liaos. haha. but well. FEAR NOT. haha! i did orders by myself also i CUT the room also i chased people out too and sadly i accidentally saw one couple being touchy to each other when i wanted to send them the bill. im really embarrassed. ive got no time to care much thou. continued my billing and poof off i go and look at the MON systems and trying hard to remember whats on the menu. hehe.

i dont really like to talk using the microphone. man i hafta inform people using microphone and raise my voice. raised liao still soft. aRgh. but in the end, i managed to raise my voice. hehe. was informing the staff something and guess whats the reply? my supervisor: jessie louder please. repeat. i was like DOTZ~ and so i louder loh. haha.

have you eaten the chicken rice from MS foodcourt? ive been eating for two days and im loving it. haha. the chilli is PHUAAAA.. GREAT. the Chicken.. erm okie loh. the SOUP!!! YUM YUm. hehe i dont know its because ive not been eating for the whole day and had my breakfast cum lunch cum dinner at 8++9pm. that is why i think the food is soooo yummie. haha. but well. go try it people.

man im so poor this week! got my allowance and 40 bucks goes to my uniform. and man im so gonna eat air and water lohz. sigh. sigh. sigh. supervisor says 30 but didnt know its 40. he wanted to lend me some cash but i hate to be in debt. so i rejected his kind offer. hehe.

today i served some people who grad from JC. to me.. graduates from JC are soooo good. hehe. ive got good impression in them. and i served a 3pax people i think they are ah lians? a minute they are nice a minute they are not. not many singaporeans smile today. haha. kbox reporter: Jessie Tay. wuahahahhaa

and im working on sun too. but its morning shift. hehe. so no worries for my school work. school work are still in good hands. having one paper on 16th. God please HELP ME! i need WISDOM! and a positive mindset!!!!

to all: i love you all!!! i love my brother the most! nono. my grandma the most.. nono my dad. hehe. well.. i love the three of them the most la! not forgetting my beloved grandpa who went to heaven to be with the Lord before me. i love him too. i miss him too.. its been a year ++ since i last said ah gong, gong gong, GONG~ haha.

oh my goodneesssss!

can someone just take something hard to knock me out?

the time now is 709am and im wide awake. and i fall asleep at 4am. woke up at 6am. how good is that? man. please just knock me to sleep lars.

know whats the reason that im super awake now? its all the thunder/lightning fault! its raining cats and dogs outside and im sleeping super well but when the thunder comes and POM i just jump outta my bed. im kinda frightened lars. its scary its so loud and im alone in my room and everywhere is soooo quiet, peaceful. im afraid!!!!!! -SCREAMS-

this few hours of mine are so star precious. coz for the entire day today im so not gonna have any time free. and ive gotta be awake till like 12am? and i slept for only like 2hrs? oh man. how good is that?

ARghh.tell me tell me how can i go back to my dreamland? ive still got around 2 hours for me to sleep but now im sooo star awake!! how? arGh.. why cant it rain like in the noon? thought i can have my sweet sleep. but it turns out to be a mission impossible. all thanks to the rain. why the shui ling long so hardworking today? - okie i need some sleep coz nth i say make sense now- haha.

Jay's song not bad ehz. im somehow addicted to his songs. its soooooo nice!

HAPPY ME!

decided to blog since im waiting for my hardworking washing machine to finish all the washing. needa exchange my uniform tmr.

guess what? i enjoyed my job! hehe. well i guess the people there aint that bad. thou they smoke they scold profanities and one fierce woman but she seems very friendly and nice in my eyes. hehe. they all seems so nice in my eyes! hehe.

was supposed to end work at eleven but i would love to learn more and help cause there way to many people the staff had gotta handle. so i hope i helped out a little thou i know nuts about the things there as of now. but i'll try my very best to do everything correctly. i hope i will not be blur already.

time passes real fast over there. its seems like an hour or two had passed. but in fact its been like 4 hours. hehe! ive learnt many things today. but i dont think i remember all but i know a little of how their MON system work. oh theres one thing i find it super hard to get it right and that is when the Recept use the mike to inform staff of something. man they speak way too fast and it seems to me like they are mumbling. and almost the whole time they are using mandarin. man, its my first time using mandarin to ask customers of what they want. i find it hard thou. my english is far better den my mandarin. and i find it easier to understand when its in english. and i think i need a chinese teacher. my chinese is getting from bad to worst. i used to be a top erm 5 student in sec for my chinese subject okie! and just ONCE i got 90/100 for chinese exam okie. but well. its ALL in the PAST. i guess i should read more chinese dictionary. haha! erm. isit my chinese is failing or its just my HEARING problem? erm!!!!!

oh yes one more thing. just if u are wondering where im working at, hehe. im working at KBOX. and i realised one thing today. DEAr faithful readers!! if you tend to go to any KBOX please do smile to the people who serves you or even welcomes you. a smile wun kill you right. and do you know when you smile u actually make us-the servers-feel working is fun and we will feel much happier and enjoy working more. a smile makes me feel that the way i served you, you got it and appreciates it. got it? hehe. so just SMILE! a smile is a curve that sets everything STRAIGHT!

and im glad that most Singaporeans smiles! hehe. today i see many who smile to me and i feel sooo...erm.. SHIOK! haha! oh and one more thing.. know WAD? today i wore a L size top to work coz they do not have S size for me. and i look sooo FUNNY with that top. so big and sooooo SPACIOUS! haha. and ive gotta exchange it and guess how much must i pay for the deposit? oh my guang yin ma its 30! man almost half of my allowance is gone pls. i shall eat A&W-air and water- again.

ive many many things i wanna share with you all. but time constraint. so i guess i'll update again. and my time aint enough for SAT! im busy for the whole day man. and i might have an early celebration for my BIG day! hehe. busy busy. i cant even squeeze out sometime for my pants to be altered. sigh! time CONSTRAINT ah. why ah! and i really miss my brother. sigh. and coz of working just now, i missed an SUPER IMPORTANT call. and its from my DAD! aRghhhh... he left a voicemail for me and i was walking and listening to the mail i just smiled super wide coz im very happy that my dad called! he asked why didnt i ans the call and asked what im doing? a call and im super happy. i miss my dad and my bro so so so so so so much!!!! how i wish im able to call my brother to tell him of whatever im doing now and share with him some stupid stuff and wanna laugh like mad together and i wanna have supper with him and i wanna fight with him and i wanna him to piggybag me and i wanna him to cook for me and i wanna to bicker with him. i wanna to do and say the same old thing when he comes home: GO AND BATHE now. i missed the silly face and the stupid look he gives all the time! oh man i misssss him alot alot. why cant he just fly back asap!!!!!!!!

a call after work really brightens up the rest of my night. i guess tonight i will sleep SWEETLY!! haha.

i miss my grandma too.. i cant wait to tell her im working and i cant wait to let her know how happy i am and i cant wait to get my salary so that im able to bring grandma out for a meal!!!!

:: i will laugh and smile and look for joy around me::

:: i will leave the failures of yesterday and look forward to the opportunities the day presents::

:: i will recognize and appreciate the love of my family and my friends::

:: i will give thanks for all the blessings that have graced my life and enriched my days::

:: i will live as if it were my best day ever, and know by doing so.. ive made it happen::

:: and in all. i love you my dear faithful readers::

++ be blessed dear all++ loves..

people, im back again~ well. looking through all my entries and i realised im sucha faithful blogger. thats because i love blogging and writing about my life God has given me. thou not a perfect life. but im enjoying each moment im living. hehe. and also ive got nothing to do as for now. haha. i know its bedtime for now, hehe. but i love writing down about what i did in the day during bedtime haha!

lesson in school were super short. first lesson super short coz im almost half an hour late. as for the second lesson, its all little things that my merciful Class Advisor hafta let the class take note of. and then its time for home.

im craving for Ben n Jerry's ice cream for the entire day today. aRgh. i wanna eat it i wanna eat it. hmm. got home and played with my gong gongs. finding them getting cuter and cuter as each day goes. and milky is super gentle with me. carrying her and she just rest on me. how cute she is. was bathing her this evening, and she sat there quietly and let me bathed her. aint she just so nice and disciplined? was drying her using my hair dryer and she stood there still, not moving- not that shes dead- haha she is alive and let me dry her. and man she is soooooooooooooo well behaved. and as for tigger. sigh. this male cat is really arGh. -dan xiao mao-. scared of water and scared of the hair dryer. scratched my foot. -oucH- thank God the mark is on my foot. if its on my hand tigger will get it from me.

was watching tv all the way. watched tiramisu.. i wonder how does tiramisu taste like. i shall try it one day. hehe. den the channel 8 9pm show. Jillian Hee is sooooooooo HANDSOME i tell you. haha. den watched stairway to heaven. sad show.. haha. i know the ending already but i still wanna watch it. haha! im a lover of korean shows! hehe

tomorrow having test on Access. praying hard that i'll do it well. hoping for an A in my final year result. and this friday having Office Procedure test. oh... i hope i pass it well too, eventhough marks aint included for final year.

lastly. i cant wait for the day my beloved brother comes home!!!!! i guess theres two weeks more? if God were to create Teleportation, wouldnt it be great? haha!

oh.. and to CASON!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

hmm. nurul came my place today to play with my gong gong's. haha she love them alot alot haha.

had spaghetti at my house nearby food center. the spaghetti.. yummiiieee!!! haha. and then nurul and i headed down to Great World City to shop and slack. went to Ben and Jerry and had ice cream! yummmiie! i love it so much. the chocolate! oh man.. so nice!!! haha.. and saw sly at GWC. with his sister.

and we watched Flightplan. this show is a nice show. i love this show. its sooo exciting. haha.

and i went to look for bedsheets and many things. theres this bedsheet i love it alot alot. and in all..it cost 140 plus plus i think. and i went Molecue, saw this super nice clock and it cost 92++. super nice. and i saw this bedsheet at precious thots. its from happy house one. super nice! i love it! its all heart shape and its in pink and theres red too! oh my.. i love it like mad!

went to pet shop too. i saw many things that i wanna get my little gong gongs. so many stuff that i hope they will have. haha. and nurul purchase pet collar for both of my gong gongs and pet tag for both of them. its so nice of her. thanks! she love my cats like crazie too. haha! well nurul, u can be their "god- owner?" haha

my brother called from aust! hehe. asked how am i and so on la. before he ended the call he said: LOVE YOU! i was like MELTED. hahaha! i love you too gor gor! hehe. wanna chat more but he say call very EXPENSIVE. sighz. i understand. so faster talk all the necessary stuff and poof.. BYE! haha. i miss my brother alot alot. i cant wait to tell him many many things. he called, and ive got no time to tell him that i got a job. and i got no time to share with him some happy stuffs. hehe. i cant wait for him to be home and i cant wait for him to ORD! hehe. oh.. i just cant wait to see him!!! i miss my GOR GOR!!!

went for my job's second interview today. im nervous. went there, waited for the person in charge and then interviewed me. but when the interview ended, i did not say thank you or bye to the person. im too nervous to say anything, during the interview i only hmm yes huh orh. i wanted to turn back and walk to the person to say thank you, but by then, i think that person is gone. didnt mean to be rude. but well.. received a call just now, and im not jobless liao! hehe. im starting work on friday! yes!

the person called and told me to look for Captian something something. i tell you, right now, i forgot who is the captain he was referring to coz ive forgotten all abt that captain's name. and the caller did not intro himself when he called. and he said: or you can look for me on friday. so i just orh. i dont know his name but i remember his face! hehe.

tell you hor, i went for the interview, that person smoke infront of me can. i was like. i need air i need air.. coz we're both in the room la. he look kinda fierce too. i wonder how's life working there....God please bless me!!!

im meeting nurul dearest and bestie tomorrow.. hehe. movie tomorrow! yes! and again spaghetti at my house!

just got home from aunt's place. went to her place twice today. first was to take my weekly allowance and then cabbed down to somerset to meet bestie cindy vevian nemo and together headed down to the avalon building. dont know what UAN thing. invited by our dearest serene cheong. haha.

this afternoon was a bad day i could say. if some of you read most of my entries, i wrote about my aunt- materalistic woman- i said i wonder how long i can tolerate her and wonder what will i do if i cannot tolerate anymore. and guess what did i do today? i couldnt take it. and i just TEARED. my sweet volcano erupt. well, i let her roar for weeks/months/years. and now its time to let it off i guess. i cried and she got shocked so is alice-my cousin- who claimed that she had never seen me in tears. well. today's incident is for her to know how long i can tolerate her mother. and i guess my popo and alice know who's right and who's wrong. coz in the end popo and alice came and tell me my aunt always likedat and blah blah blah, i didnt listen much coz im super hurt and tears just keep falling.

was late meeting bestie and company, but still im at aunt's place crying. my beloved grandma was there too. she saw me crying, and when i was gonna stop tearing and wanna try to cool down before i leave her place, grandma cried! sigh. i cant help but to cry again, coz my beloved grandma cried! it hurts me so much to see grandma feeling hurt for me. i laughed to stop grandma from crying thou its very obvious its fake laughter. and i went to wash up to see if my make up gone or whatever. and den, haven even step into the washroom, aunt came and talk again- now in a gentle manner- and i cry again.. i told her i REN WU KER REN. and know what she say: okie its good that you let it all out today. and i just teared again loh.

as i was very late and bestie cindy vevian nemo are already waiting there for dont know how long. i cabbed down with tears. got in the cab and with tears, i said to uncle: somerset. i guess the uncle was in shocked? and i was actually in the cab crying and looking at the sky and cry.. haha. that uncle super kind sia. he helped me, guess wad he did to make me forget of whatever happened? he talked to me about LAO PO BING! haha! and he show me how good is that bing. and how much is it and how nice is it and how children and adults love it and history of the shop and tell me where to get it. and from the moment i got into the cab from kallang, he was talking to me all abt that BING to the time ive reached somerset. see how good uncle is.

by then, im feeling better and headed down to avalon liao. and saw serene acting and dancing. man i really love her la. she dance so well. i love it. and the way she acted. can improve. but still good! haha. and waited for serene outside the building and off we go for food...had pasta. hehe.

cindy, serene, vevian, nemo and me went to orchard point de dunno where for pool. did not play but be audience. haha. serene and i was teaching nemo how to make a rose using our IJ belt. and poor nemo, took sucha long time to learn. haha! tell you la. IJ rose hor, only IJ girls know how la. hahahahahahah! jkjk.

oh abt the act at avalon just now. i love scene dont know what. where the guy who acted as a butch. man thats so funny. haha. the dance caught my attention. haha. its fun and exciting over there. nice place.

went esplanade for awhile and den headed back to aunts place, this time she more gentle with me liao. haha. den i guess she told uncle about it and uncle came and talk to me in a good manner too.. as usual. uncle very gentle but the wife tigeress. and den celebrated weiming-my cousin- birthday. man.. the little kids love the cream alot can. all wanted to eat the cream can. the cake la. but keep asking for more cream. and im more than willing to give all the cream to them haha.

and ive learned new poker game today. its called stress. haha. its really kinda stress when playing that game. alice wanted to play dai dee. but too bad, i dont know how to play. haha! i know how to play black jack worz. haha. slacked for awhile and grandma asked to go home.

so my day started with tears and den to no more tears. haha. who started it? aunt! see.forever her. -shakehead-

why would i still love someone who have caused me much sufferings? forgiveness is the greatest love i could give to that someone-not referring to aunt-. well i almost break down today. thanks to the taxi driver and serene for inviting. if not i might still be crying for now..

ren nai shi you xian du de.

its a public holiday today and im home for the entire day. and today i did the household chores hehe. im being a good girl for myself. hahas. got up at 12++pm and slacked for awhile before i start to -da sao chu- haha. i swept the entire house once. mopped the entire house twice cleaned the bathroom. and the toilet bowl. i hate cleaning toilet bowl. haha! i scared got snake pop out! haha! and wiped everything. and did the laundry. and know what? my washing machine super hardworking today!! it hasnt stop working from 2++pm till now. got too many things to wash. changed bedsheets. and blankets and washed my brother clothes. i wonder why he didnt dump the clothes in the pail but hang behind the door. he will not be back for like three weeks loh. hehe. so i'll be kind. i helped to dump in the washing machine. and folded all his clothes.

after doing all the housework. its time to settle myself. i went to COOK! hehe. i cooked fried long beans again. and curry chicken. dont think that im very smart to know how to cook curry chicken. y? coz its CANNED one! haha. and i think im gonna get myself a big big gloves soon.my hands will soon be disfigured by the oil that loves to JUMP out of the pan.and its freaking painful.each time i cook, i will never fail to shout OUCH.its really painful okies.and as usual, i use the cover of the pan to protect myself.my shield lai de.haha. and one bowl of rice. and ive settled my breakfast cum lunch cum dinner at 7pm! hahaha!

den followed by dessert. hehe. just one small piece of watermelon. why small pieace.. coz my brother finished half of the watermelon loh. i bought one whole watermelon. big big one. cut half finished by jan wilson and me. den the other half. wilson and me and one more half wilson,annd a smaller half for me den one more small piece for me! hehe. i love watermelon!!! yum yum!

do you think my little gong gong's love HL chocolate milk? milk is good for bones right. so let the both of them to drink its healthy hor? i need to drink milk too.i feel my bones aint strong enough! haha! and i think i need to drink more tonic to -bu xie-. haha. blue blacks never fails to appear. right now, i have FOUR blueblacks on my legs. sighz.

i was kneeling while looking at the hungry cats to finish their meal..stood up and den i BLACK OUT! haha. now different case. i dont see holy man already, i dont see bright bright light like during the 2.4 km run day. today.. i blackout for about erm....10 secs? haha. and i think im a ah ma liao. whenever i sleep, i never fail to get the feeling of my legs are numbed. and i so wanna scream out loud this afternoon. my pillow are ready to cover my face to scream out loud. but den.. slowly.. not numb liao haha. the pain is intolerable. bth.

was watching the -wang zi bian qing wa- show. that show made me feel so tired. not that the show is boring, the dang-ou relationship made me feel soooooo tired. and i need to take a breather. haha. this kinda relaionship i bth. after that show, watched the man o man show.. nice show. got this -meng nan- weeeeuuuweeekk! super macho. -drools- haha! his name is Leslie something i dont remember la. a swimmer and man he got a very -kia lang- figure. i think he is overly FIT. overly fit guys scares me off and also turns me off. oh back to that show.. nice show.. they intro places to dine, romantic places and wine..and the dressing for man..its a nice show i could say. hehe. and i think my brother should catch this show. haha. he need to change the style of his dressing. haha. but too bad.. he's over at wallaby now.. im still missing him! ARghh...

just got home from the airport. im tired but i dont wanna sleep. haha. grandma and xiao aunt and da aunt was in the airport too. but da aunt have to leave as one of her customer is waiting for the air ticket, da aunt is the owner of the travel agency la. so no choice she gotta leave. den left xiao aunt, grandma, janice, wilson and myself.

was at the food court in the airport terminal 2. was chatting with grandma and again grandma teared while talking to me and that xiao aunt somehow scolded her. and again grandma is still worried for the same old thing, worried that i might not eat well, cant take care of myself. do i look like i dont eat well?and cant take care of myself? but i think i eat alot and i can take real good care of myself. i depend on noone except my brother. she is always worrying. sighz. what can i do so she will not worry so much?

just right beside the foodcourt, theres this restaurant. i so love this restaurant. i like the environment. it totally catch me haha. its called soup restaurant. and im a lover of soup haha. i hope i'll have a chance to dine there one day. hahaah! and guess what i had for breakfast cum lunch cum dinner? i had one large fries and one medium coke from mac. and now.. im hungry. but i dont know what to eat..at this hour eat abit.... unhealthy..

wilson's departure time is at 2030 hours and this person went in at 2000 hours. if its me, i rather go in at 2020 hours. haha. got in early he still gotta wait in that big room. so what for, haha i rather be there later. haha. and now he should be flying already. i miss him~~~~~

went bugis with geck dearest. shop around, got myself a cheap cheap top and i love it many. but i wanted the other top from MaryJane but sigh!!! it cost 24. wanted to get it but geck dearest say dont get it. so dont get it lohz. den saw this cheaper top at i forgot the shop name. 2 tops for 20. so geck got one and i got one. i love it so so so much. but i prefer the MaryJane ones. been eyeing for it for like.. a long time. and the top's written in bright pink: ask your bf to call me. haha i like it. hahaa! if theres a top with my name on it in HOT PINK. wow! i will get it for sure. haha! its HOT PINK im talking about okie haha!

and went to a friend shop and got a gift for wilson and janice. hehe. tot wilson might not like it. surprisingly he told me that he like it. but i guess he just dont wanna disappoint me? haha. and janice.. welcome! i forgot to say welcome and just continue talking! haha! -roll eyes-

was in the train going home just now. im pissed. im super not happy. im like.. WTH? theres this man.. came in the train and stared at me. i turned away pretending i did not notice him. and den i looked back and still he is staring. and 2 sec later i turned back and stared at him. and STILL he is staring. its like we're looking at each other for like 5 secs? he is making me feel so freaking uneasy. tell me, how can you sit still when some man is looking at you every min? i was like keep moving i cant sit still coz im freaking uneasy! ARgH.. and reached the stop im stopping, i hold on to grandma's hand and walk out of the train, man that stupid man his eyes followed me till im out of the train. i feel like going to that man and scream at him. my heart is like... so not happy. wanted to diao him.. but.. hehe. keep my cool ehz. and continue to keep moving lohz. haha. and know what i did? i keep looking at my watch, coz ive got nothing else to keep myself cool. talk to grandma, tried liao. dream, tried liao. i so hate it i so hate it. its pissing me off lohz. sighz. i hate it alot alot. when i was younger, someone told me that, some man stare at girls, their mind are thinking of them naked. and etc la. and the moment i look at that man.. he scares me off can. he was standing near the door. he wasnt resting his back on the glass. he was standing facing me, DIRECTLY please, with folded arms, staring without looking away. girls, tell me.. how will you feel? frightened? i am frightened.

just got home from school. sigh. what a wasted trip. reached school at 12+pm and realised that there's either no lesson or i cant find the teacher.went to the classroom and not a single soul inside. called nelson and this person is at home. sianz. and so i left the school and headed home.

went to check the debarment list as its out already. and Thank God that my name aint in there. phew* and for my Customer Care's role play i got an A. Praise The Lord! i thought i did badly. little did i know that ive got myself an A. haha! and in all, im able to take my exams! thank God!!! and hopefully i will do a great job. im praying hard for all As. or maybe 2 As? or.. 1 A and the rest B. haha! or.. the same result as the last module, 1 A and 3 Bs. hehe. that isnt that bad also. haha.

his flying of to wallaby today. and he is sleeping like a piggy now. haha. hope everythings fine when he's there. hope that he will not fall sick or whatever.-praying hard- safe journey too.

im a day closer to my exams. im excited for it and also afraid of it. exam phobia. haah. im excited coz i know im gonna graduate soon, and im excited coz it will soon be over. am afraid coz im worried i might not do well. am afraid that i might not get the result i want. GPA 3.5 will be my goal for this year. am i able to get it? i doubt lehz. but well. i wont surrender coz the battle has not even started.

i miss my dad suddenly. remember a few years ago he left for taiwan, walked him to the car and turned and walked off.. tears keep flowing down. cant even stop it. and now someone very important to me is leaving me for a month or less. i dont know what will i do. was thinking about it on bed yesterday, was just feeling uneasy.

oh. i watched the superfunky show yesterday. and they introduced this place at stamford road. i forgot the name of the place. but its a very nice place to chill and slack and have fun. can watch movies can read books can dine there and it cost $10 not included the food. and the food there very nice from looking at it. i wanna try the food too!haha. the pricing is at $14.90 for food. and i so wanna go there. anyone know that place? i wanna go i wanna go........the environment is great too.

did nothing much today. slacked at home. cooked at home. watched tv at home. sleep at home. and do housework also. hehe. and so.. theres nothing much to blog. so i decided to do this, i took it from janesis blog.

sigh! my beloved dearest brother is going off tmr! man.. i cant take it. how i wish that he'll stay~ one month lehz. how sad. im lanoe already till he's back loh. and he is leaving at night. im so gonna be at the airport at 7pm tmr~ he aint in aust and im already missing him many~ sigh~

1.what are you doing?
- this

2. what were you doin before?
- doing housework

3. who are you thinking?
- my brother [ go out so long already still dont come back, flying tomorrow already still dont come back to spend more time with me] humph!

4. what time did you sleep last night?
- i slept this morning lehz. 7++am

5. what did you do yesterday?
- watched vcd [ at the dolphin bay]

6. what did you last say to a friend?
- bye?

7. what attracts u to the opposite sex?
- character/looks

8. what makes you happy?
- to pass my module lohz. haha

9.what are you wearing right now?
- gior tee and stc short

10. what will you do after answering this?
- sleep

11. who was the last person you talked to?
- my brother

12 what do you want to tell ur crush?
- im interested in youu?

13. when is your birthday?
- 15 November [its coming]

14. what you wanna get for your birthday?
- things that i need.

15. when did you last cried?
- this morning [ man the show so touching]

16. when did you last smile?
- i dont remember

17.why are u answering these questions?
- coz im super bored now

18. when will you marry?
- when im ready?

19. when did u last receive a gift?
- i dont remember

20. when did you last drink alcoholic?
- darren's bdae

21. who will you vote for president?
- who's in the queue?

22. who was the last person you talked about?
- my brother's fren

23. who makes you happy?
- my joker friends? many of them.

24. who has the cutest smile you've ever seen?
- erm...babies smile are the CUTEST!!! haha

25. who do you talk on d phone with often?
- bestie

26. do you take drugs?
- nono

27. are you a shopaholic?
- give me the money i will be the one. haha!

28. do you have someone in mind that you wish to get married with?
- no

29. do you like swimming?
- so-so

30. do you wear eye contacts?
- nono [ scully it tio stucked in my eyes how?]

31. do you kiss your parents good night?
- nono. parents aint around lehz.

32. does your bf/gf often send you messages in friendster?
- nono

33.how about in e-mail?
- nono

34. hair colour?
- black

35. hair style?
- ugly

36. feeling right now?
- good

37. what makes u feel like that?
- coz i feel the peace i want

38.how do you treat your loved ones?
- love them. [ words of affirmation]

39 Do u like the weather today?
- nono. its super warm today loh. bth

40. what r u wishing now?
- to accomplish my goal for this year. hehe